| AHHHH!!!!!!! |
[May. 19th, 2005|08:51 pm] |
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| | *nOnE* | ] |
it was alittle better today than the past couple of days. but it still suxed. me and noelle are talking now and everything is awesome, well yeah you get it.....anyways, i'm bored and have nuthing to do, again. so i have nuthing more to say..... |
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[May. 16th, 2005|09:59 pm] |
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| |  *BoReD, bOrEd, AnD mOrE bOrEd* | ] |
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| | *NoNe* | ] |
i am soooo bored!!! i don't know what to do!!!!! i might just go lie on my bed and stare at the wall. sounds interesting.....i might just do that....well i guess i'm out. |
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[May. 12th, 2005|04:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | *GuiLtY, SaD, BoReD* | ] |
| [ | music |
| | *TaKe Me--PaPa RoAcH* | ] |
well noelle is still mad at me and i don't think she will ever talk to me ever again! but i understand why cuz of my stupid big mouth. anyways this saturday is cindy's party and i need to get her sumthing so yeah i need to remember to do that. i am sooo bored! i need to get out of the house or sumthing cuz i think i might die of boredness. that might be a good thing, since everyone hates me and noone cares. well anyways i have don't have anything else to say so yeah i'm out! |
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[May. 8th, 2005|10:53 pm] |
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i am sooo tired and i don't know why? yesterday was my block party and it was ok. it could have been alot funner but yeah it was ok. i still had fun. but anyways, i got to see my cousin and aunt for my brother's graduation. so that was kool. anyways, i don't know what else to say so i'm out. |
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| questions!!!!! yay, how fun!!!!!!!!!! |
[Apr. 22nd, 2005|08:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  *Ha, ThE sTaR fLiPs* | ] |
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| | *NoNe* | ] |
hello! well i got bored an i found this on cat's journal so i thought why not! haha my turn!!!!
what would you do if:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
Questions
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23 What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? |
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| i hate mr.porras! |
[Apr. 20th, 2005|04:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | *NoNe* | ] |
damn mr.porras! i hate him! he took my camera away just becuz i took a pic of him! thats gay! well yeah he said he was going to talk to the assistant principal about it. he won't, he was just going to keep it for a day. but still! i needed it! i have to take pics so i can post them on my profiles. well i don't have anything else to say so bye ppls. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 20th, 2005|11:31 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | *BoReD oUt Of My MiNd* | ] |
| [ | music |
| | *LeTtErBoMb--GrEeN dAy* | ] |
well being hear at home is boring! there is nothing to do and noone to talk to. i almost didn't have a ride to skool! but then i have to get a ride from noel. yay, how fun, not! i don't see why we have to go to skool in the first place we are only in class for 40 min. thats stupid! anyways, i don't know wat else to say so i guess i will go now |
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| another boring day! |
[Apr. 8th, 2005|10:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | *ScArS-pApA rOaCh* | ] |
today of course was really boring. at lunch everyone was scared of getting shot cuz of a stupid rumor. ppl were saying that at lunch someone from a gang was gonna shoot everyone wearing certain colors at lunch. so other ppl were sayin' that they were checking ID's and they weren't so my mom drove all of us to chico's. it was awesome!!! 6 ppl were stuck in the back of my truck and 4 of us inside, its was funny cuz all you see is ppl's knees in the air cuz they were trying to lie down from all the cops. the only one's that you could see were vince and david. it was sooo funny! also mauro called me and asked if i wanted to go with him to the movies to see hide and seek! ahh scary! hate scary movies, i will have to be brave! tomorrow sometime we are suppost to go but i don't know when? all well it should be fun! ahh i watched nitemare b4 x-mas today! haha it was on t.v. so yeah that was kool! i don't have anything else to say so i'm out bye! |
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[Apr. 7th, 2005|05:54 pm] |
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its soo boring as always. today i broke up with david. we weren't talking at all and he thought i was still in love with chuy but the thing is i'm not and yeah so that was a big part of it. i just still like chuy but not alot just alittle very little actually. but yeah anyways, he's been avoiding me to go with yvonne and maryellen but its ok. he's with people he can actually talk to instead of a dumbass like me. well anyways, nothing has happened. ohh last friday someone got stabbed at skool. i didn't get to see it cuz i got there when it was over so yeah that sux. but prisilla got a pic of the blood, that was kool! well yeah i don't have anything else to say so i'm out, bye! |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2005|10:25 pm] |
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| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | *nOnE* | ] |
i have nothing better to do than write in my boring journal! yea, how fun! yeah right! well anyways, yesterday i went to catherine's house to dye justine's friend's hair so yeah that was interesting. well the thing is, there was at least 8 of justine's friends there so i didn't know who's hair i was doing? so yeah that took forever! me and cat did 3 ppls hair and i did one of my bangs dark blue! it looks awesome! well it did already! haha jk. anyways, everyone's hair didn't come out right. the thing is we didn't bleach it first and yeah so maybe on monday at lunch i will buy some bleach and i'll be able to do their hair right this time! today was really boring! i was suppost to go to a show but it got cancelled! damn! that sux, now i'm pissed! well yeah anyways, this passed week i haven't talked to david at all!! ah so sad! ohh and ha some dude got stabbed on friday! but i wasn't at skool in time to actually see it! but from what everyone was saying it must have been bad! well yeah me, andrea and noelle were gonna go get a tan at that aruba tan place but you have to be 16 to go by yourself. so yeah we'll do that later. i can't believe i haven't talked to david all today and yesterday and the day before that!!! ahhh i'm soo horrible!! well yeah i think thats about it so i'm out! bye |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 9th, 2005|12:23 am] |
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| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Best is Yet to Come Undone--Lit | ] |
hello! i haven't been on hear for a while! thats crazy! but everythings the same so thats kool! today was kool, even tho it could have gone better! well that pain-in-the-ass alexis called me and so i went over to her house for a little bit. we were jumping off the roof onto the trampoline. i have a feeling one day it will collapse on us, just knowing we built it makes it questionable! so then i got bored and called david and he came over. we were going to do these pics for this other website thats awesome! http://vampirefreaks.com/profile.php?user=FallenMemory that’s my profile! Its really kool and I know you might think its weird and full of freaks but everyone is really nice. Well anyways, I was going to do my pics and david’s cousin wasn’t home and he’s the one with the camera so yeah I didn’t get the pics! Ahh! So then we walked to catherine’s house and we got kicked out by her grandma! Biggest laugh ever! So we walked back and just chilled hear. Then my dad came and took me to get an ice cream (kiddish I know) but it was kool! I got kinda sad cuz I didn’t get it spend enough time with david and I wanted to stay with him longer but I had to go with my dad. Maybe I’ll see him tomorrow I bet I will! I just miss him and I like him a lot! Well I’m really tired and I guess I’m out! Bye! |
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[Feb. 19th, 2005|11:11 pm] |
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the past couple of days have been kool, weird, akward, and just boring. on valentine's day, at skool, it suxed up the ass! but it was weird cuz since it was an A-day i had chuy for a class and he was remembering things from when we were together and it was kinda kool but scary! well anyways, when i got home my mom got me a cell phone. so i got really happy about that! and then the next day david came over and jackie and him were talking and jackie was asking him why he hasn't asked me out already and he said cuz he was embarrassed and stuff and so she convinced him to go out with me and so we did but it didn't seem like we were and so then we agreed to be friends with advantages. but then i realize when he came over one day i didn't want us to be just friends so we came up with this thing and yeah now its working for us. so yeah anyways, today was awesome cuz i was helping eric and alexis move to thier new house and david was there too. so then it kinda started to rain and so we were all happy but then it was hail so we ran inside the uhaul thing and it was all hailing all kool but inside the thing it was soooo loud but kool! anyways we were getting ready to go back to the new house and i was putting up the little ramp thing and my finger got stuck inside the thing and i got sooo scared that it was all cut up but it wasn't so yeah that kinda suxed! well anyways when we were at the house we didn't do anything and me and david were sitting on the sofa and he was playing with my hair but it was sooo kool cuz he was there and yeah. so then i had to go home cuz my mom said i was there for too long so when i got home, adam and eric came over and we went to walk to psycha but they were closed so then we walked to circle K and got a coke and then went to cat's house but she wasn't there. so then we went to benito and chilled there for a while and we stole a desk that was outside. so then we came home and i called david and we talked for a little bit and yeah. today was pretty awesome but i still can't feel my finger! i just wish it didn't end to soon. that was fun at benito! that skool was the best! well yeah i'm getting really tired so i'm out, bye! |
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| OXSOME! |
[Feb. 12th, 2005|11:28 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  excited! confused? | ] |
| [ | music |
| | linkin park--from the inside | ] |
hey yesterday was about one of the koolest days ever! haha well it could have been better but yeah it was still oxsome! ok well yesterday at lunch natane was tellig david to do something and that he better do it at lunch or she would do something. i had no idea what was going on but i had a feeling it was something but i thought it couldn't be what i thought, if that makes any sence? well anyways when we were walking back to skool natane whispered to me pretend i'm telling you something and then you get all happy and you say yes. so i started laughing and stupid natane gave the whole thing away! well anyways i asked her why she wanted me to say yes, so she told me she was talking to david in class and she told him he better ask me out today or she would do it for him. so he didn't do it at lunch but i saw him waiting outside of his portable and he gave me a letter and it said all this stuff about what happened at lunch and if we did go out that it would be kool and if we broke up that we would still be friends and stuff like that. but the most OXSOMEST part of the whole day was what happened to cat. she took that test and it came out negitive! AHHHHH HUGS TO YOU CAT! SOOOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU! i bet she is really happy and now she doesn't have to worry about it anymore!!!!! YEA! well there had to be one thing to make all of the goodness go away! on thursday chuy told me he was having a show today and he told me i have to go. well the thing is i'm still grounded! and i told my mom about it but i don't think she would let me go. the part that sux is i've wanted to see him play for the longest time and the last time i went to see him he didn't play so i'm kinda bummed but maybe i can ask my mom again and see if i can go. cat will have to some with me but i don't care just as long as i see him play. and i'm kinda worried that something will happen to me and chuy like if i start feeling like i did and he feels the same way and all that starts again. then i get the thing for david and then i'll be screwed again! but i want to see him play soooo bad! i really don't think anything will happen cuz what maudo said that he's moved on. but if thats not true then what do i do? wow that rhymed! haha well anyways, then it wouldn't be fair for david! AHHHH! I'M CONFUSED! well i shouldn't worry about anything with my luck i will end up not going. but still its an if. well i have to go so yeah i'mm out bye! |
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[Feb. 4th, 2005|05:00 pm] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
yeah its friday! ohh yeah! ok moment passed. today kinda suxed but it was kool i guess in a weird way? well anyways i had to present that project for english and that was kool!! i'd say ours was the best! props to angie evelyn and megan! (fear megan). haha sorry inside joke, well ok i'll just tell you anyways! its cuz angie was naming things that people are afraid of and she said megan as a joke. well megan suggested that we put megan on her period, so we did. she thought we were gonna take it off but we didn't! haha so my advise to you, stay away from her if she's on her period. if you don't know megan then you're fine! then in spanish, it suxed cuz we were in the westling thing again cuz i guess the heater in the portable isn't working? i don't know but anyways, we watched this movie and it was stupid. bobby was acting like the little girl cuz she was blind and could hear and was making these noises and crap so yeah he was doing that too. well after that maudo,or however it is, got out his terror cards. not like terrOr the scary terror but the other cards yeah you get what i'm saying. well anyways he had two cards out and asked people who was just thinking about someone? i was thinking about chuy cuz he was right there but i didn't say anything. so then he says ok well whoever was thinking about some one they've moved on and he didn't finish saying the rest. so i figured that it meant that chuy has moved on. then i told him to do this other thing on me, and it came out that i have issues with this person, i'm obessed and thats now good cuz it won' get me anywhere, umm someone cares about someone, and if i were to get back with chuy it wouldn't work out between us. he's already moved on and nothing would happen. so then i did kinda the same thing but on david, and it said there was love and that someone cares for someone alot. well yeah g2g bye. |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2005|06:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | whisper--evanescence | ] |
ahh this sux! i got stuck doing a stupid english project and its due tomorrow! its even worst cuz i have damn spanish! ahhh i hate that damn class! anyways it was kool yesterday cuz evelyn and david were at my house and then we went with angie to hobbie lobbie so we could get more stuff for the project and yeah. so we came back and stupid david he was marking me with the perminate marker so yeah today i got him back but not as much as he did. it still suxed! but yeah i just don't know what to do now. angie was saying that someone she knows was talking to her saying that chuy was gonna ask me back out and that would be sooo kool! but the thing is i don't really talk to him and yeah. so i doubt that anything will happen between us. and i've been around david for a while and natane and berinda say that we will go out anytime soon? who knows where they got that from??? haha funny! well yeah i have to go finish that project so yeah out! bye! |
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[Jan. 27th, 2005|09:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | confused, tired, mostly sad | ] |
ohh! could today be any more boring! jeez! well it wasn't all boring, but still! cuz in spanish i was all bored and was just doing some stupid project thing and Chuy called me over to sit next to him so i did! haha i feel all stupid, like it was a big deal and crap but it is to me! so shut up! haha jk ok anyways, but yeah i thought it was kool. ohh and it turns out that the chic in my class that i thought he liked is actually his cousins friend so yeah he talks to her cuz of that. so i don't have to worry that much or maybe i do? i don't know? i just think he does alittle? ohh and he told me to go to his website and check to see when his next show was, so i did and after i checked the show date i looked at the pics! OMFG!!!! he looks sooooooo hot! i swear! AHHH! HE'S SO PERFECT AND FU**IN' HOT!!!! well to me anyways. but yeah i was drooling all over! ahh! if only i could tell him! but ahh he's sooooo hot! i am talking to my friend right now and i am just talking about how i miss Chuy and she said that things will turn out. i hope they do cuz i can't take this anymore! its tearing me apart! everytime i see his face i can't keep it in and i want to cry so bad! i told him my mom is giving us anyother chance but he's a guy he doesn't know what that means no matter how much i've told him how i feel about us being apart. ahhh it gets me frustrated sometimes! ok moment passed! anyways Maryellen asked me about David, nothing is going on with me and him. i still love Chuy and i think it would be alittle weird if i did with David. so yeah thats that. ohh tomorrow we are going to Basken Robins for Natane's b-day so that will be kool. ohh and today at McDonald's David got a mcflurry and so i kinda stole it from him and i had taken a bite and started to laugh and i accidently spit it out on to his beanie! haha it was funny! well i'm really tired so yeah i'm out! so see ya later! |
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[Jan. 25th, 2005|06:17 pm] |
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| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | until the day i die--story of the year | ] |
everything has really sucked for me. well i kinda knew my mom would look at my live journal and she might be reading this right now but anyways, she saw it and she had me tell her what was bothering me. so then i told her the whole story of my chuy issue. and so she told me well if you guys do get back together just take it slow. and so i got all happy when she said i could get back with chuy but the thing is i don't think he likes me anymore. i gave him a letter saying if we can talk but of course he never says anything about it. but yeah i think he might like this chic in my spanish class. cuz when ever we have an assignment he goes and sits over with them. but i like the fact i have maryellen, maudo, and daniel there too! haha i think i spelled his name wrong but all well. yeah i don't think i like david anymore either cuz i don't know yeah hes kool to talk to but i don't see us together but i might be wrong. i just have to see where is goes? but i hope that if we do i don't want me and chuys realationship as friends to go wrong. but then again he did that to me but yeah anyways. he probably wouldn't care but just incase if he did. well yeah i just don't know what will happen next. but i hope its nothing stupid. i'm so confused! haha nah not really i just thought i would say that but yeah i guess i'm done. bye! |
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[Jan. 21st, 2005|10:44 pm] |
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| |  angry | ] |
ok today was very weird. well it wasn't that weird but yeah. its cuz yesterday i was talking to david online yesterday and i told him he never told me who he liked and so yeah. so i told him that i liked him and so told me he liked me and so yeah that moment passed. so then he said he was thinking about things. but the things he was thinking were like if we were to go out if it would be different or weird and stuff like that. but anyways i told my friend maryellen and she told me to go out with him. but i don't know. yeah i would but i'm still attached to chuy alittle and if i were to go out with david, i don't want chuy to stop talking to me and get mad. but i know everyone is saying that he did that to me so why don't i do the same but the thing is he only went out with that girl just to get his mind off me and it was for 3 days. but i mean i don't talk to him as much and its like how can i like him if i hardly talk to him. but i don't know! i still have a little thing for him. oh right now david came over and we were talking and jackie was there. and of course alexis and amanda were there too. but anyways alex and amanda were getting me mad cuz they wouldn't shut up. and so when they were gone, jackie was flirting with david and so i got pissed. so when she finally left everything was kool. i just got pissed cuz she was doing that and its like why the hell do you do that with every guy you see! it gets annoying! but other then that everything was kool. |
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[Jan. 20th, 2005|10:44 pm] |
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ahhh i'm so tired! today sucked! it was sooo boring and slow! i just realized that i don't really like chuy all that much anymore. i don't really talk to him like i used to and but in a weird way i still do. like just a little part of me still loves him. since i haven't been with him as much and i've been with david, i'm kinda starting to like him. haha ironic! but if anything were to start with me and david i wouldn't want chuy to all of a sudden to stop talking to me. cuz that would be stupid. but then again i don't know whats up with him anymore. but yeah i guess i don't know? i'm lost! haha! i'm falling asleep so yeah. |
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| AHH! |
[Jan. 19th, 2005|04:42 pm] |
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| | frustrated | ] |
alot of things have been bothering me. and of course they are the problems as everybody knows already and are probably sick of me repeating them over and over. well they mainly have to do with my mom cuz she's ruined my life more than once already and i can't take it. its like i want to talk to her but i know that what i tell her she won't understand. when i try to talk to her something else always comes out. same thing when i talk to chuy. i want to talk to him so bad and tell him how i feel but i can't. everytime its just me and him its always akward silence, or its him whos always talking. like i want to just sit down with him and tell him what is bothering me. but i have told him a thousand times what is wrong but he just won't listen. and nobody listens to me. whenever i am talking someone has to cut me out and start talking about something else. its like they know i'm there but then i'm not and thats why sometimes i am so quiet. i don't know sometimes i think that nobody cares that i'm there. Berlinda is pissing me off too, everytime i get something to eat i have to waste my money and get her something to funkin eat! and she doesn't pay me back. if she did then i wouldn't be mad but still, ahhh! i'm just really pissed. but the good thing is that i got David's beanie! haha! |
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